Yeah, here we go. I'm so fucking tired... of a lot. But yeah, basically this stupid heat. It's driving me crazy! I can't deal with it in school. Luckily, only one more week of this hell hole and I'm gone. Well, it's gone. Then highschool. Doesn't sound to bad. Does it? Just a scary new school, dealing with my sister and her boyfriend... and... well, it will be better with all my friends, right?
I think I'm actually gonna miss this year and everything... I mean... I've gotten so many new friends... and lost a really good one. And I do miss her at times.... and well. Blah. I'm not getting all mushy. But looking back at everything. Everything that's happened. How I've growned, or fallen. All the stupid mistakes or drama I've caused, all my crushes, my first boyfriend... hopefully there will be a second some day. My first kiss, my first time driving (in the parking lot at the mall), my first time being told 'I love you' in that way, my first time being in love, my first time losing someone that at times I regret a lot, my first time openly admitting to people that I am bi, my first formal social... tommorow night, my first graduation in about a week... the list goes on and on. Even though this year has just been SO much. So much has happened, some hurt, some drama, some happy, some miracles... I'm gonna miss it. Amazing isn't it? Where you can't wait to leave, and then it comes time to... and your actually going to miss it. Yeah, I'm not sure if I'm really going to miss the principles and crap... but the experiences that are there. All the memories that I have from there. Maybe it's just two years... but it's a major part of my life. So now, I'll be heading to highschool along with a bunch of my other friends, and instead of being the older crowd, once again we'll be the babies. For all those that I won't see, like Jill, I'll miss you like hell. Over the summer we all have to keep in touch. All my friends.
To all my friends, Sarah, Becky, Jill, Nicole, Emili, Brittany, Suzy, Alaina, Brandon, Rob, and all others that I've forgotten. I want to say thank you. For putting up with me and always being there when I need you. Thank you for loving me unconditionally, even when i say such bullshit or hurt you. Thank you so much for this whole school year and all these fun memories. My sister just said I sounded like a prep... but... lol so be it. I love ya'll SO much! I also want to say thank you to someone else. If they read this, then they'll know who they are. Thank you for teaching me so much and being there for me. Even though I made mistakes, you still put up with me. I've learned so much from you and I'll always always remember you.
What lies ahead, I have no idea. The path might be rough, but with all you guys here for me, I know I'll make it. I'll miss you all over summer and we HAVE to call eachother! Okay? So much for this not being mushy... lol. I can't help it. I never stop. This entry is dedicated to all my friends and the 2004-2005 school year. Congrats all! Off to highschool we go!!
I'll inform you on social later... I know it will be great. Can't wait.